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Ade's avatar

I’ve read a lot of stories, a whole lot. Most of these stories, I’ve never been able to get past the first few lines but yours? Captivating! You have a way with words. If you ever have thoughts of stopping these, remember that. A lot of us aren’t as strong as you are to share our experiences, it’s hard but we can read yours and draw strength, maybe one day we will find the courage. Thank God for the gift of you and thank God for the gift of your words for they are liberating. You’ve got a fan in me🤭

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Hamda Koya's avatar

Thank you 🥺

This means a lot 🥺

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Sop's avatar

👌👌👌👌

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Gloria Ochai's avatar

Vaginismus is a more common condition than we think. It's why I roll my eyes when I read books or watch films depicting the first time as an easy-peasy.

It's even more ridiculous when they suggest that the woman experienced an orgasm or multiple.

Very laughable.

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tobi o's avatar

“But I never saw my parents have a full-blown kiss, tongue and all.”

i thought i was the only one. Sigh!

i pray we do better when we have our kids.

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Hamda Koya's avatar

I’m going to be so mushy with my partner if I do have kids. How else would children know what soft love looks like?

We’ll do better. ✨

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tobi o's avatar

that soft love gan gan, they’ll know it by force. 🥺

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Hamda Koya's avatar

By force, by fire 🥺

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Ridwan Abayomi's avatar

I giggle a bit when I read that. And a thought came to my head like “for where tongue ke”

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Nugu writer's avatar

I-I have a lot to say actually but my thoughts are incoherent at the moment...*sigh* Thanks for sharing your story, I feel seen and understood 💜

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Hamda Koya's avatar

Whenever your thoughts become coherent, I’ll be here if you need someone to talk to.

And even if they never become coherent but you’re comfortable sharing jumbled thoughts with a stranger on the internet, I’ll be here.

Sending you hugs 🫂

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Nugu writer's avatar

Owww🥺...that's so sweet if you really.

Thanks for creating a safe space with your blog. I appreciate your reply and would keep it in mind. Thank you Hamda💜

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Tomi's avatar

I’m sorry you went through all of that and I’m glad you are able to share this knowledge and experience with others ❤️

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Opeyemi's avatar

You are like the big sister I never had talking to me about her experience and me learning from it, knowing I am not alone. Thank you so much for your selflessness🥺❤️

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Hamda Koya's avatar

You’re welcome 🥺

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Precious's avatar

Reading this felt like someone out there has lived a life I'm currently living.. from the parents' sexual orientation to now living with vaginismus. It's how it's Google that's the common diagnostic doctor for this thing 😂. I hope I find a man as patient with me though. Thank you Hamda for sharing 🫂❤️

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Hamda Koya's avatar

You’re most welcome. And I do hope you find your own person who is gentle with you 🫂

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Ridwan Abayomi's avatar

It was a great story like always, it is great to learn more about women. Makes or help you be abetter man to them. Plus great you talked about how your later BF handled the situation, i learnt, prepares or at least gave an insight of how to possibly handle situations like that in a good manner. Thanks for sharing💯

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Blessing Shittu💙's avatar

The truth in this story is heartwarming. Thank you for sharing your experience without a second thought. I had a good read!

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nwaEMEsi's avatar

Thank you Hamda, for writing this.

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Patricia Tare's avatar

Wow! Interesting story with honesty.

It's well. I would say am the advocate of stay away from sex until marriage. But sometimes life throws you surprises.

I hope you find pleasure in sex, I know it can be hard. You will be fine.

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Oluwatobiloba's avatar

We definitely need more safe spaces for women to talk about sex. There's so much to uncover and unlearn! Similar to you, I never saw my parents show each other affection. Sad.

Thanks for sharing your story, I'm happy to hear you have found healing.

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mariam chiatta's avatar

This is great and realistic, thanks for sharing

Having a loveable, best friend, and partner who understands you. Reading your story has a lot of memories to mine. You are brave .

Cuddles from me to you😊 😀

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QueenEsther Chukwuka's avatar

This is a masterpiece. My thoughts are how this can be published in newspapers or turned into a novel. Not enough is said about sex and best believe you did justice to this subject. I salute your bravery and vulnerability.

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Elisha Yusuf Ishaya's avatar

This is beautiful and I absolutely enjoyed reading it. I'm going to share this with all the women I know❤️

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Hamda Koya's avatar

Thank you 🤗

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Aisha Farinre's avatar

Oh Hamda how I love reading your stories! Thank you for being so vulnerable with us, so sorry you went through this but I’m happy you’re better now. Also, God bless the man that helped you get through it when it was real tough. This felt like a big sister talk and I loved it, learnt a lot. Thank you🤍

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Hamda Koya's avatar

You’re welcome 🥺

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